I always wondered if people ever really read the millions of blogs people like me write on a daily basis. I think most of them are just excercises in exorcising your own demons.

This is my first blog so I'll keep it short. I expect to write about who I am and some of my thoughts on various topics and a few descriptions of inventions I have had and think of on daily basis.

I am a grown man - child of 52 with two daughters and a wife. I am a kid at heart who is delighted to find new discoveries each day. I have been around the seamier side in my past and have lots of experiences most people never have. Don't get me wrong. I am no tough guy. I am middle class all the way. White bread with a little flavor you might say. Normal, average, clean record and all around average guy on the outside. It's just that I have had some tough times and have been into various things in the past.

I am not your typical reborn or second chancer or sobered up druggie. I have a matter of fact attitude about life and in a down to earth manner of lifestyle, I rarely try to impress. I dress in jeans to work and to business meetings and let my mouth gain my respect. Not the clothes. I get a lot of smirks and eyeball rolls when people meet me in a business setting. That all works to my advantage because when I finally open my mouth there are lots of red faces around the table. No, I am not the dope you thought I was. And, I have a photographic memory for conversations.

I am on a new kick lately that I hope will last. I have never been good at staying in touch with friends. Lately I have been given new opportunities to reconnect with old friends I let go. Now I try to stay in touch because I finally realize the value of a good friend.

Too many people go through life as loners. Yeah, they have the core family and a few friends - acquaintances of parents of the kid's friends. Maybe a few buddies from work. I am truly blessed to have a handful of people I can call at any time and say "I need you" and they will be there. No questions asked. It's nice to be able to look them in the eye and say that I would be there for them too.

So much to say, so little time. Today I went to a meeting. Yep - one of them. I went for a few years without the meetings with no real ill effect except some anger and frustration build up. But now I started going again and you would never guess that I actually relax there now. Not too worried about if someone is going to like me or what I say. I speak a lot more now too. Uh-Oh.... someone's growing up.